Sorry I have not made a post for awhile!

I don't like putting this on the back burner but sometimes life just happens! I am still in my super hard class going for my doctorate-research designs and data analysis. Three more weeks and I will be out of that class on on to the next! I am still going gluten free, dairy free and sugar free but I am also trying to work on what got me to my weight problem. I wish I could be one of those people that simply can't remember where their unhealthy behaviors with food began. I can't say that though. I have always had what my mother and grandmother called a healthy appetite. My mother made me eat grapefruit every morning to teach me healthy eating patterns. God love her she did try! My grandmother used to line up supplements on the table beside my bowl of bran flakes with no sugar (gross by the way!) I can pinpoint down to the month and year my eating habits turned unhealthy. March 1983 in the middle of a snowstorm that had school called off for over a week. I remember it vividly, my mother asked me to walk down to the store to get some stuff. She gave me some money and I walked to the store (I was 13 and we lived in a really small town!) I got what was on the list and saw some grandmas soft chocolate chip cookies. I had to get them! I knew my mom would tell me that I shouldn't eat them and scold me for spending her money on them. I had some of my babysitting money with me so I used the money to buy the cookies. I started to walk home and planned how I would hide the cookies and eat them in secret. I hid the cookies in my coat and walked in the door. I gave mom the appropriate change and the stuff from the list. I walked into my room and hid the cookies in my nightstand. I ate the whole package of cookies in about an hour. So the cycle of eating in secret began. The behavior is something I still struggle with. I have thought about it and it is like my reasoning is that if nobody else sees me eating the "bad" food, the calories simply don't count! Of course I know they do but that seems to be my reasoning. I still struggle with that now. So, just because I am eating gluten free dairy free and sugar free doesn't mean that I am home free! There will need to be a lot of work done that doesn't involve food in order for me to make a lasting change. I promise I will try to post again soon!