Sorry I have not made a post for awhile!

I don't like putting this on the back burner but sometimes life just happens! I am still in my super hard class going for my doctorate-research designs and data analysis. Three more weeks and I will be out of that class on on to the next! I am still going gluten free, dairy free and sugar free but I am also trying to work on what got me to my weight problem. I wish I could be one of those people that simply can't remember where their unhealthy behaviors with food began. I can't say that though. I have always had what my mother and grandmother called a healthy appetite. My mother made me eat grapefruit every morning to teach me healthy eating patterns. God love her she did try! My grandmother used to line up supplements on the table beside my bowl of bran flakes with no sugar (gross by the way!) I can pinpoint down to the month and year my eating habits turned unhealthy. March 1983 in the middle of a snowstorm that had school called off for over a week. I remember it vividly, my mother asked me to walk down to the store to get some stuff. She gave me some money and I walked to the store (I was 13 and we lived in a really small town!) I got what was on the list and saw some grandmas soft chocolate chip cookies. I had to get them! I knew my mom would tell me that I shouldn't eat them and scold me for spending her money on them. I had some of my babysitting money with me so I used the money to buy the cookies. I started to walk home and planned how I would hide the cookies and eat them in secret. I hid the cookies in my coat and walked in the door. I gave mom the appropriate change and the stuff from the list. I walked into my room and hid the cookies in my nightstand. I ate the whole package of cookies in about an hour. So the cycle of eating in secret began. The behavior is something I still struggle with. I have thought about it and it is like my reasoning is that if nobody else sees me eating the "bad" food, the calories simply don't count! Of course I know they do but that seems to be my reasoning. I still struggle with that now. So, just because I am eating gluten free dairy free and sugar free doesn't mean that I am home free! There will need to be a lot of work done that doesn't involve food in order for me to make a lasting change. I promise I will try to post again soon!

Sorry I haven't been able to post for a few days!

I wanted to apologize for not posting for a few days! Things just got busy for a few days. I started a new class in my doctorate program that promises to kick my tail for the next 8 weeks-analysis of data. It is not as fun as it sounds. "That data looks great!" is not the analysis my professor is talking about. I have found out a few things over the last few days though. I made some chicken burgers with ground chicken but they were a little bland even though I seasoned them with lots of tasty seasonings. So I grabbed a bottle of Sriachha from the pantry and doused the heck out of the chicken burgers. My thought was how can anything that spicy have gluten in it? I eat a chicken burger doused is Sriachha sauce and about a half hour later my tummy aches like crazy. I look on the ingredient list and on the ingredient list it says "modified corn starch" which apparently is a form of gluten or something. I was a bit miffed (I am taming it down actually-I was downright MAD!) So that is the sucky thing I learned the past few days. The thing I learned that didn't suck was that I can have carrot cake! No, not the glorious carrot cake you are thinking of that is covered in a wonderful coat of cream cheese frosting but I will still take it! I shared with you the vegan mug cake the other day and so I made a few modifications to it like I added some pumpkin pie spice (for no other reason than spiced cakes all usually call for the same type of spices and that is what I grabbed first) and a handful of carrots. I started the microwave for 2 1/2 minutes and opened a can of coconut milk I had in the fridge and scooped out the thick part and added some stevia and cinnamon and then added it to the mug cake. It tasted SOOOOO good! You have to understand that I adore carrot cake! Much to the disdain of my friends I had a carrot cake for my 5th birthday party! This of course does not even come close to my Mom's carrot cake but hey I will take it! Well, that is the closest thing I have to a recipe today folks.

So tired....

I have no idea why I am so tired today! I slept just fine and actually got to bed sooner than I usually do! Oh well, I guess that happens some days. Well, some of you may have noticed that the picture I posted of Bitty Kitty was not of him sitting on my computer. I posted a picture from my phone because my laptop overheated (from Bitty Kitty laying on it) and so I spent MOST of the day yesterday getting my computer up and running again. Because I can't just kick Bitty Kitty off of a place he wants to lay down, I was forced to come up with an alternative. I put a heating pad on a chair and covered it with a towel and that is where he has been ever since! The heating pad shuts off automatically after 15 minutes to keep people from being burned so I set the heating pad on its lowest setting and he is quite happy with that!  Now since it has been a few days since I posted a recipe I will post one today-along with a picture of Bitty Kitty on his new spot! So, here is the recipe (from pinterest- of course!) Pinned from nourishnotpunish.tumbler.com

Mug Cake recipe
3 Tablespoons of Gluten Free flour
1 Teaspoon of Baking Powder
1 egg or egg replacement
A splash of almond milk as needed
1 teaspoon of vanilla
Sweetener of choice (I used Stevia)
Add in whatever you want and then put in mug (I used a soup bowl and it worked fine)
Microwave for 2 1/2 minutes and then (here is the step I forgot since it was CAKE!) let it cool down because it is HOT!!!!

And then here is a picture of Bitty Kitty

Today

Today the air conditioning is working so it is a good day as far as the temperature inside goes! Yesterday I went to church with my Mom and as she was backing out she hit a car. The damage looked like there was dirt on her back bumper and the guy's car had less damage than that! Still she was not happy about the whole thing! Today was not a whole lot better except for that my husband is upset at me. I had to make a credit card payment and it said I had $0 available credit. I looked on the transactions and my husband used the card 3 times since the last statement. I sent a text telling him not to use the card because there isn't any credit available and of course he got defensive. I understand- I am the same way! However, I am trying really hard to pay off the credit cards, or at least get the balances down! So, I am sure he is not happy with me right now. I have no idea why! I have not used that card at all! But, whenever someone says something about something like that you get defensive. Other than those things the only new thing is that my 15 year old cat Bitty Kitty has started to sleep on my computer. I am not talking about when I am not using it, I mean he literally is right by the computer laying either on the mouse pad and the mouse, or behind the computer. My guess is that he has started to have a lot of problems regulating his body temperature so he is keeping his body temperature up by laying by the computer. I am going to plug in his heating pad and see if that helps. I shudder to think of life without him demanding to have me move into a certain position in bed so that he can put both legs over my arm and snuggle down. In my mind, I know it is coming but I bottle fed Bitty Kitty every hour  as a kitten so to say it would be devastating to lose him is an understatement. He does not act sick so I think taking him to the vet would not do any good. I think all I can do right now is just do whatever I can to keep him healthy and comfortable. I am posting a picture of Bitty Kitty on my computer. I will post again tomorrow!

Air Conditioning Finally! Or at least better than it was before

Well, after three days and three different repairman from the same company the air in the house is down to 83 and the thermostat is set at 74. So, the air conditioning is not at the top of its game but at least it is better than before. Now the sucky news.... both the air conditioning unit and the heating unit will need to be replaced in the next week or so. The air conditioning unit is 25 years old and so is the furnace-both are on there last legs. My husband said replacing them would cost "5 or 6". I was relieved! I told him I was afraid it would be a couple thousand dollars! My husband then gave me a look like he envied my naivete. Then he spoke the words that made me panic quite a bit. "No Bev, 5 or 6 THOUSAND." I am having problems making the mortgage payments and the car payments! I think we have come to the conclusion that we will probably need to refinance the house. I don't want to but it is the only thing we can come up with to find $6,000. Unless anyone out there knows someone interested in selling one of my kidneys on the black market. I have been applying for jobs that I am not even remotely qualified for but I have not been hired for the jobs I AM qualified for, so my thought is that I might get a few interviews from the companies that want to see the person who is applying for jobs she has zero chance of obtaining. Don't get me wrong, I have education and a stable work history. The problem is that the work history is not in the same area as the education! That and I am not licensed in the state. It is a terrible dilemma and I have given up finding that "perfect fit" for a job and I am just shooting for the moon at this point. I don't have any recipes again but I have been thinking of this quote from Albert Einstein that reminds me of how I have handled trying to lose weight in the past. "The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." This time I am throwing my old way of doing things straight out the window and it is a whole new ballgame this time!

Hot day today!

I am referring to the actual temperature of the day. The weather warmed up and we decided to turn on the air conditioning. The problem with that decision was that the air conditioner did not work. I called a local company out and they got it running but it was not cooling. This guy came out and spent more than three hours trying to fix it. It still will not cool. It is now 90 degrees in the house. I prefer to think of it as a free sauna! Seriously-it is scary how few clothes we are wearing right now! I am sweating non-stop and it is not a pretty sight! It is so hot that nobody (including me) has had the desire to eat all day. I did fix a flax seed wrap with turkey and I tried homemade pesto on it-I omitted the pine nuts and replaced them with some Braggs Nutritional Yeast. It was really good! The other upside is that I have been drinking a TON of water. I also managed to get almost the entire house cleaned. There is a downside to that as well, that means that I will be forced to clean out the pantry next week. I actually think that is a good thing because there are some things that I KNOW are in there but they are hiding! I do not weigh myself until Wednesday but I measure my waist every day. I have started to do that because it is very encouraging to see the tape measure getting smaller. It is literally doing that daily. The last time I weighed myself I have lost 4 pounds which is really discouraging but I know the gluten free dairy free sugar free thing is changing in inches-just not in weight-yet! Well it is seriously hot so I am going to leave you with a couple of pictures. I wanted to share a picture of my hubby and my oldest son Jaymz.

Last night

I made a casserole for my family last night and since it was not a gluten free casserole I made a quinoa burger with an egg in the middle. I put the quinoa burger into a bowl and sat down with my plate of the quinoa burger and cucumber slices and my husband asked if I was going to make the flax seed bread to put the quinoa burger on. I said "no, that is too much food". That was an epiphany in several regards. In one aspect, just me saying that phrase (and meaning it) gives me some power over my addiction to food. The second aspect is that it sounded JUST LIKE MY MOTHER! Which should be a compliment since she is going on 77 years old and looks probably 45. I think the biggest aspect is that I realize how food is affecting my body. If I eat too much, even if I eat too much healthy food, I do not feel good. This journey has allowed me to start listening to what my body is trying to tell me. My eating has become an activity that I am mindful about. I don't just pick something up and eat it now. I read labels and experiment with different recipes. I am swapping out healthier options throughout the entire kitchen. I think the best thing is that I can look at the oreo's the kids brought in and set on the counter and I don't have the overwhelming urge to eat the entire package and then go to the store so I can replace it. That is something I have done frequently and it scares me to admit that openly. To admit that food has that much control over me and that I still have that capacity to act in a manner that is so completely unhealthy. The picture I am going to post is of my mom. My mother is the most awesome mom there has ever been. She is my biggest cheerleader and my best friend. My dad was the most awesome dad too but I lost him almost 10 years ago to bladder cancer. I will post again tomorrow!

Today

Well, it has finally decided to warm up here in Hutchinson, KS. I finally relented and told my husband he could turn on the air conditioner. So, we closed all the windows and flipped the thermostat to cool and ... nothing happened. So this morning I have to call the repairman to come and fix the air conditioner. Wouldn't you just know it? I have been stubbornly avoiding turning on the air conditioning and as soon as I relent it is broken so all the money I saved not running the air is now going to the repairman. I have always said that I am a direct descendent to Murphy from Murphy's law! I am trying so hard to pay off our debt and every month something like this happens. I have been very strict on our budget for food and utilities and I have stopped using the credit cards completely. I know it is going to be a long time before we can dig ourselves out of debt but I am going to keep trying. A week ago I had a tooth pulled and a temporary bridge put in so what ever is not paid by my two dental insurances I will probably have to put on a credit card. Next year I am scheduled to attend my second residency in Phoenix, AZ and I want to be able to take my family on vacation while I am there. What that means is that I will have to have enough money for the trip, food to eat while we are there, and money for the extra room and days we are there. The residency is at the Hilton and it is super nice! Add in the fact that we have NEVER had a real vacation and you can see that the stakes are pretty high. I will also have to figure out someone who will be able to take care of the dogs and cats. The cats are no big deal just feed them and then make sure their water fountain is clean and running. The problem comes with the dogs. Both my fur baby dogs are rescues and they do not trust many people. Loki, my "wild child" dog growls at children, strange people, and the vet. He is anything but a vicious dog and you have to understand how he came to be rescued. Loki was originally given to this lady with two small kids. Loki was a month old when he was given to this lady and she just had white carpeting installed. Bright lady, huh? Two small kids and a puppy that is not housebroken and you get a WHITE carpet! Loki was just a baby- a month old baby- and he had an accident on the new carpet. The lady kicked him repeatedly and broke three of his ribs. That was when Loki came to live with us. He is a husky and "talks" to me all the time. He really is very sweet but not everyone wants to sign up for a week of feeding and watering a pure white husky with blue eyes that seems a bit- well, unstable. Jack, my black lab is 11 and very friendly. Both are big dogs and not many people will care for big dogs so I might have to board them for a week (aka more money). So that is what is going on at the Martin household today. No pictures today and no recipes but I hope I will have something posted tomorrow!

Early morning again today

I am up early again today. I am used to getting up this early at least for the most part! My husband had to be at work at 6 am so that meant we had to get up at 4 am. I just warmed up a lasagna from the freezer for Ron and the kids. I made the lasagna about a month ago and nobody ate it so their punishment was to have it again! I made some quinoa burgers and then decided I would try a "hack" I saw about hamburgers and I sprayed some olive oil in a pan made a hole in one of the quinoa burgers and dropped and egg in the hole. Most. Awesome. Quinoa. Burger. EVER! I made some flax seed bread to put the burger on and the bread calls for 4 Tablespoons of ground flax seed, a teaspoon or two of garlic powder, 1/2 teaspoon of baking powder, 1 Tablespoon of olive oil and two eggs. I spray a sandwich container with olive oil and put the mixture into the sandwich container and microwave for 3 minutes. This is not my recipe but one I found on pinterest. The recipe was pinned by Demetria Johnson. I have a paper due for my doctoral program on Wednesday so I am working on that today and I am going to try to motivate myself to clean today as well. I don't have a picture yet but I know what I am planning on making for dinner! I have some chicken breasts that my hubby grilled this weekend so I am going to use those and dice them up and make some quinoa pasta and a light alfredo sauce and I may make some gluten free Italian bread to go with it. The picture I have added is my youngest son Blade. This is one of his senior pictures from a couple of years ago. He is a great kiddo-funny and smart. He is the one still looking for a job and I hope he finds one soon. I just want him to be able to know what it is like to work and to accomplish goals.

Hectic Day!

I have been busy today! My oldest son has a beautiful car-a 2001 Chrysler 300M, but it doesn't run. It worked fine until December and now it will not start. So I used my free AAA tow to have it towed to the repair shop. Right now I would be able to take him to work and other places he wants to go but at some point in time he might want to drive some where alone! It has not been running since about March now so I am sure he is anxious to get it fixed. At some point in time I would like to think I will get a full-time job and I wouldn't be able to take the kids places they want- or need- to go. That doesn't look like it will happen anytime soon though. It will be another month until my two summer classes start that I will be teaching this summer. Sadly, I have time to clean and organize but I do not have the motivation! I thought that today I would share one of my OWN recipes and not just one from pinterest. First, a back story about the recipe. When I was 19, the age of my youngest son, I went on an adventure trip to Florida. Florida is beautiful and the people there were so nice but the trip was terrible and life-changing in the worst way possible. One thing that did come out of my adventure was that I discovered Key Lime Pie. If you have never eaten Key Lime Pie in Key West, Florida pack up the car and the family and head there now! It is divine and I have never eaten another Key Lime Pie that is as good as the one from Key West. So since I am trying to eat healthier and I REALLY wanted some Key Lime Pie, I came up with a drink that is reminds me of that divine Key Lime Pie without the calories or fat.

Key Lime Frosty

1 cup of coconut milk (or almond milk)
1/2 cup of ice
2 Tablespoons of lime juice- you can use key limes if you can find them or just lime juice
Stevia to taste-I use about a Tablespoon

Blend in a blender, or slushy maker, or whatever you have. Pour into a cup and add a straw and drink in the yumminess! I don't know if yumminess actually counts as a word but it is really good.

My hubbie is finally done with the shut down and I have three words for his mood last night- CRANKY,CRANKY, CRANKY! However, after he slept for 14 hours he seems to be feeling much better. My youngest son Blade has an interview at McDonalds today and I hope he gets the job. Poor kiddo has had an interview for almost every application he fills out and he has been on 15 interviews now but no job-yet! I wish I had as many interviews as my 19 year old son has had! My oldest son works for a graphics company but it is on call and part-time. He did not work at all in February or in May so I hope they call him in tomorrow morning. I didn't really eat last night I just warmed up some leftover eggs and gluten free waffles and let the kids fend for themselves. I am such a horrible mother! Letting my offspring find their own food! I figure they get to eat out almost every day and I have not had an enriched white flour bun for WEEKS now, so yeah at 22 and 19 they can totally find some left overs. I figured today I would share the recipe for my flax seed bread! I got this from pinterest and it was pinned by Demetria Johnson.

Flax seed bread

4 Tablespoons ground flax seed
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
the recipe calls for 2 tablespoons of butter but I use olive oil
2 eggs
Garlic Powder

I mix it all up and spray a plastic sandwich container with olive oil spray and pour the batter into the sandwich container and microwave for 3 minutes. Then I slice it in half and usually put some turkey breast or chicken breast on it with some daiya cheddar cheese. The sandwich meat I eat has no antibiotics, it is gluten free, and soy free. I must also mention I do not like to spend a lot of money so the gluten free flour and other ingredients I have been using have all been purchased on clearance-that includes the daiya cheese and the sandwich meat! Well, I have homework I need to do so I better hop to it. I will post tomorrow!

Dinner last night

It has been a L-O-N-G week at the Martin household! My husband has been working a "shutdown" and has been working 13+ hour days and today is the last day so he is ready for everything to be done. For those of you who are not sure what a "shutdown" is-think of it as "Extreme Makeover-Commercial Edition". You know, that television show where the family goes on vacation for 3 days and when they come back their entire house has been totally redone? Well, it is like that only for a company. Last night I decided that I would make Easy Mexican Casserole. I will post the recipe and a picture for you. I tried to make it as healthy as possible, substituting non-GMO and organic for most of the ingredients, but I couldn't afford to buy organic cheese so I bought Kroger brand. You know what I wonder? Who makes the decision about what "easy-open" means on packaging! The cheese I bought said it was "easy-open" and all I envision is that there is a gorilla in a room somewhere and if the gorilla doesn't get frustrated opening the package, then it is deemed "easy-open"! I have a butchers block that knives have disappeared from and so it holds 3 pairs of scissors for those "easy-open" packages! Sorry, wanted to make sure you understand my complete hatred for "easy-open" packages. I am trying to drag my family kicking and screaming into eating healthier. The other night I made breakfast for dinner. Waffles, eggs, sausage, and bacon, yeah-I know, not very healthy. It was cheap and that was what I was going for! The thing was that I made the waffles gluton free, and nobody noticed! I thought it was really weird too because when I made the sunflower seed cheese I mentioned in yesterdays post everybody pretty much freaked out. It is still good, I don't care what they say! I will be eating another wrap for lunch today. I am going to post a picture of the Easy Mexican Casserole and just keep in mind I substituted as many healthy options as possible and I ate a stuffed bell pepper. I have added the link as well!

Easy Mexican Casserole

http://allrecipes.com/video/822/easy-mexican-casserole/detail.aspx

Recipe by ANDREALF63 

"This is an easy and very tasty dish. I often substitute ground turkey and low fat dairy products and it is still delicious! Serve with chips, salsa and green salad."

Ingredients Edit and Save

Original recipe makes 6 servings 

• 1 pound lean ground beef
• 2 cups salsa
• 1 (16 ounce) can chili beans, drained
• 3 cups tortilla chips, crushed
• 2 cups sour cream

• 1 (2 ounce) can sliced black olives, drained
• 1/2 cup chopped green onion
• 1/2 cup chopped fresh tomato
• 2 cups shredded Cheddar cheese

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• PREP
  20 mins
• COOK
  30 mins
• READY IN
  50 mins

Directions

1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C).
2. In a large skillet over medium-high heat, cook ground beef until no longer pink. Stir in salsa, reduce heat, and simmer 20 minutes, or until liquid is absorbed. Stir in beans, and heat through.
3. Spray a 9x13 baking dish with cooking spray. Spread crushed tortilla chips in dish, and then spoon beef mixture over chips. Spread sour cream over beef, and sprinkle olives, green onion, and tomato over the sour cream. Top with Cheddar cheese.
4. Bake in preheated oven for 30 minutes, or until hot and bubbly.

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Healthy lunch

I am trying to eat healthy and I have to admit that after decades of shoveling crap into my body trying to eat healthier is not an easy task! I have always been a "sandwich" kinda girl and I miss the experience of assembling a sandwich and the first delicious bite and all the way to the last crumb. I have a picture of my lunch today that I am going to post later on but I will describe it a little bit before I do. I made a flaxseed wrap which is super easy-3 tablespoons of ground flax seed, some garlic powder (I use a couple teaspoons), 1/4 teaspoon of baking powder, a tablespoon of olive oil, and one egg. You mix it together and I scrape it all into a glass pie plate greased with some spray olive oil and microwave it for 2 minutes and the flax seed wrap is ready. Then I spread about a tablesppon of sunflower seed cheese on the wrap, put three slices of chicken lunch meat that is gluton and casein free and then top with a slice of daiya cheddar cheese. It is very good and I do not even miss white bread! I also make some flax seed sandwich bread that is very similar to the flax seed recipe and I will share that when I make it again. I get these really awesome recipes on pinterest. I am a TOTAL pinterest junkie! The recipe for the flax seed wrap was pinned by

Lillian Ramsden

and the sunflower seed cheese (very tasty!) was pinned by

Found on keepinitkind.com 

 

Anyway, I am posting a picture of my awesome healthy lunch! Thank you pinterest pinners for helping me make healthier choices!

 

Just introducing myself!

I am new at this so please forgive me if I make some mistakes! I am going to post about things in my life-some awesome, other things not so much! I guess I will start by telling you a little bit about myself. I am 45 now and I am working on my doctorate degree but I also work part-time as a psychology instructor at a community college. I am looking for a full time job but nobody seems to think I have anything to offer!

 I am married and have two kids, they are 22 and 19 so they are not little any longer. I have two dogs and two cats all spoiled rotten to the core. I am writing my dissertation about extremely early intervention for infants that are "at-risk" for autism spectrum disorders. I am still early in the process but I am working on it (slowly). My oldest son has PDD-NOS (Pervasive Developmental Disorder-Not Otherwise Specified) and so I think about the challenges that he has faced when I began this journey.

I have always struggled with my weight and sadly my weight is winning the battle! I have just started to eat healthier-or at least try to! I am avoiding gluton, dairy, and sugar and I am actually feeling better! I have only lost about 3 pounds with a lot more to go but I am going to try to keep going. Join me to talk about life-both the joys and the struggles. I am going to post a picture of myself and I will try to post pictures with each post